i need a vacation

my job entails me saying the same thing every day, over and over again. such is the life of an insurance claim handler. whenever i get a call, i say the same thing - "thank you for calling____, this is ____, can i have your claim or policy number, please?" it's mind-numbing work, and i got full proof of that last night.

my boyfriend has a tendency to work late on projects, and crawl into bed whenever he can't keep his eyes open any more. last night, he got into bed around 3 am. i had already been asleep for a few hours and was dead to the world. this morning, he enlightened me to the fact that we had a conversation when he came to bed:

me: hey baby.
him: hey.
me: babe, i'm gonna need you to file a claim with me.
him: ...what?
me: i'm gonna need you to give me your claim or account number.
him: what are you talking about?
me: ....oh god, i'm working. (proceed to go back to sleep)

if this isn't evidence that i need to find a different job or take a vacation, i don't know what is.

The tv in the lunchroom at work plays soap operas all day. Soap opera sex is pretty much soft core porn. Awkward moment ensues.

hell is an office

anyone who works in an office like mine will surely agree. hell is not fire and brimstone, it is not a hot and dark underworld, it is not deep underneath the earth (or wherever). hell is, however, full of minions and the tormented shells of souls of persons passed. it is air conditioned, you have a small cubicle, your every minute is regulated, and your phone beeps every minute with a new phone call and some person who hates you on the other line. this place may be hell. i'm not quite sure. maybe it's just purgatory. maybe in hell you have to do this and they don't actually pay you. at least in prugatory you can blog and they give you a paycheck. but i'm not sure which it is right now...it certainly feels like hell, i'll tell you that much.

opinions are like...

you know the saying, "opinions are like assholes, everybody has one"? it's true, everyone does have one. but if you think about it, you really don't have to think about it at all. what i mean by this is that your thoughts, a.k.a. opinions, aren't consciously formed. even as you read this, you've already got an opinion on it. like something, don't like something, whatever - it's predetermined in your subconscious before you come to the realization of it. and once you think of it, it's hard to change. even then, you still secretly harbor doubts about the change. you still cling to that original opinion, but you can't help it, that's just how the brain works. those chemicals up there like to do what they do and can't easily be swayed.

i'm not sure why i thought of this. i think it came about when i started this new job and things started popping into my head when i would talk to certain people. once the thought formed, i would have to reason with it and make it into something different than its original. for example, i would talk to someone who kept asking me to repeat something and i would automatically assume that they were hard of hearing. but maybe not! maybe they're still upset and distracted maybe their phone sucks. but that opinion/thought that they were hard of hearing still remained. it was difficult to let go of. there's more extreme cases of this subconscious opinion versus conscious argument, but i won't go into detail. let me just say that sometimes, i want to wrap my phone cord around someone's neck (usually my own) in frustration.

and you can agree with me or not on this issue- that's just your opinion.