i find your lack of faith disturbing

this is pretty much what my brain looks like right now.

it's crunch time, people. with three-ish weeks left until i'm done with this semester, i'm definitely flipping out a little. okay, maybe i'm flipping out A LOT. i know that all the work will get done, but damn. there's just so much of it to do.

i'm fine with taking finals. individual tests are no problem because i control them and i know exactly what to do to do well. but group projects are a totally different story. coordinating schedules? nightmare. splitting up the work and getting everyone to do a decent job on their parts? don't even get me started. it sucks because we've all got three or more group projects to do at once (thanks, business school!) and we all have a hard time fitting our lives around everything. most groups are pretty good, but i've had a few nightmare members...they don't do their work or don't show up to meetings or don't communicate with the group or do terrible work. sometimes it's a combination of all of the above! i hate dealing with those people. i used to be more timid and just correct their mistakes or do the work for them, but i've turned into more of a meanie now and i make them fix it themselves. i know it sucks, but they had ample opportunity to do a better job, and i refuse to turn in somebody else's bad work and have it reflect negatively on me or on any other member of the group that worked hard. plus, somebody's got to have a backbone, or else those members will just walk all over you again in the next project.

but off the soapbox for a while. i probably won't be sleeping much over the next week. that's okay though! what has to be done will get done. and then i can spend my vacation researching jobs and what warm city i want to move to.

switching subjects: winter is cold. i don't like it. so, i wear running tights underneath my jeans. i know i probably look silly and crazy when i show people, but i don't care. i am warm and cozy in them. when the wind blows, i can't feel it. it makes me happy. at least that way, i can pretend that i live in a warmer city.

also, random note: i wrote a ten page term paper in 3.5 hours last night. holler! hopefully i get a good grade on it, fingers crossed...because it's worth 30% (!) of my grade.

ugh. now back to work.

gah

i have a big test tomorrow. and my kitchen is flooding underneath the floorboards due to a leak in the dishwasher. awesome.

oh puh puh

this weekend wasn't too bad. i had a meeting at work on friday that i thought would either be really good (as in, we like you and we want you to stay) or really bad (as in, well now that your boss is back from maternity leave, we don't need you anymore). luckily, it went well and i get to keep my job for a while! i went to a few bars and saw a few shows on friday night, and even ran into someone that i work with pretty closely. it was fun to get to know her on a bit more of a personal level.

on saturday and sunday, my parents visited, so it was nice to get to see them. i went shopping with my mom and picked up a few christmas present ideas. this is good because it's pretty hard to shop for her normally.

i held a focus group last wednesday for one of my class projects, and i brought someone that was only there for the food and was not helpful in the least. i let him have it a little today before class, and he even apologized for being untalkative. but i wasn't in the best of moods anyway, so i might have taken some of that out on him.

speaking of which, i'm finding myself growing irritable at a lot of random things lately. i'm kind of attributing it to stress...i know i only have a few weeks of school left, but dang. i have so much work to do, it's stressing me the eff out. and did i mention how much i loathe group projects? because i do. a lot.

gar.

this school business is cramping my style

booooo. i'm pretty over college right now. i'm so close to being done (just the end of this year) and i'm really ready to not go to school for a few years. i do plan on going back and getting my master's degree, but i don't think that my parents believe me...they were asking me the other day about if i was gonna go back right away and get a secondary degree. my dad even suggested environmental engineering. i have no idea where that came from. i hate math and he knows it. the weirdest (but not really) thing is that he was pushing for a secondary degree so that i could make a lot of money. which he's never talked about before. it kinda freaked me out a little bit, actually :(

anyway. i know i'll be fine. i'm gonna get a good job, have them help me pay for my mba, then move up in the world until i get to baller status. no big deal. and besides, i don't think that i could settle for less. and it'll all work out in the end.

now back to studying!