you must chill! i have hidden your firebird keys!

today has been pretty productive. i got a bunch done that i wanted to, which is always a good thing. i still have more to do tomorrow and wednesday, so it's a good thing that i'm not working right now :)

the last few days have been a little off - my sister and i went home to see cousins but then never actually got to see them. it was nice to see mom and dad again, though! they might be getting sick of me because i've seen them so much lately. last night was rough - i had two bad dreams, one of which made me scream and wake myself up, and the other of which made me cry when i woke up.

in the first dream took place in my old house. my boyfriend and i were participating in a new product study that involved the use of cameras that detect faces in the dark without the use of night vision. the study involved someone coming into your house at night, and the camera secretly catching their faces. so my boyfriend and i were in a room, watching the footage, and someone came into the house. the camera zoomed in on his face automatically. half of it looked like one of those phantom of the opera-esque white face masks, and the other half was totally black - no face at all. we were excited that the product worked and thought the study was over, so we went to bed. then, as we were lying in bed, i heard the door creak open. i turned over to see a faceless man coming at my throat as if to strangle me. i yelled out, but apparently also did so in real life and woke both myself and my boyfriend up. oops!

the second dream was so realistic, it freaked me out to the point of crying. the dream started with me leaving my boyfriend's house, saying goodbye to him. immeidately, i wake up in the living room of my old house, but things are a little different - there's different things in my house (like a flat screen t.v. and a new computer) but the house itself is just the same as it is now. the rest of my family is there, but everyone looks older. my mom has longer hair and is a lot thinner. i go out to our back patio and stand next to my mom, and she asks me how i am. i tell her that i'm confused and to be honest, i'm not sure how i got there or what day or year it is. her face drops and she takes me inside, where she tells me that it's halloween of 2012 and that four years previous, i was in a major car accident, where i suffered serious injuries to my brain and body. my brother then hands me a stack of papers as if he's done it a hundred times before. the stack contains a rehab clinic brochure, legal documents stating how much my parents owe, a newspaper article about the crash, etc. i can't bring myself to read the article, and my family members aren't paying attention to me - kinda like this whole scenario has occured before. meanwhile, my back starts tingling and i can feel that the skin on my back and legs is messed up from the accident. i'm siting on the floor, trying to take everything in and crying at the same time. i'm thinking to myself, "this can't be real, this has to be a dream...why am i not waking up?" then i start panicking about my boyfriend and where he is. i feel in my pockets for a phone and find one, which is a really advanced version of my current phone. on the home screen, there are a bunch of icons representing applications (like on facebook), but they're really stupid, so i get disappointed in myself for having such terrible applications. i can't figure out my phone to call my boyfriend, and my mom and sister say not to because it costs 70 cents a minute to call out. my sister tells me that my boyfriend and friends come up to visit me all the time. then, he call me, but i can't figure out my phone and end up hanging up the call. i go into a panic, and he calls my sister. i lunge for the phone saying that it's him and i need to talk to him, and she puts her arm out to block me and says, "nope." then she tells my boyfriend to call my phone again and she's gonna answer it for me. i'm still panicking and freaked out, and i wake up with a giant lump in my throat. the dream was so real, i was confused for a minute. but i looked over and saw my boyfriend sleeping and started crying. it was kind of a mixture of relief and being worked up...even now i'm getting a little choked up! it's weird for me to be this affected by a dream, but it really messed me up for a while.

blegh. i hope that got the bad dreams out of the way for a while...i don't need any extra stress right now :)